sometimes comprehending gets so grievous that i entertain the thought of giving it up and Withdrawing. i wonder how everything became so demanding,if they already were or if i was not smart enough to begin with.
i was talking to Apu yesterday. these days,i miss Apu a lot which translates into reminiscence and results in this grim longing for Suwah to be in school too - not because i haven't made good friends in school; maybe like Jo Jo Bo Bo,i'm unable to let go of what once was. on sunday,i was absolutely miserable - i didn't want the september break to end because i did not study like i planned to,i barely finished holiday homework (but considering today's weds,i should've already finished everything and i have okay nyeh heh),i did not get as much sleeb as i'd hoped for and most of all,i wanted (and still do) to continue touring around Singapore in shorts and pumps,in search of vintage and nice little streets and visiting the Biennale sites till i'd seen them all. i tell you a secret: i was in such a funk that i lied to Eunice about having a family thing so i could skip PW meeting (i thought,"i really don't wna be at boon lay on the last day of my holiday when i'm gonna be there for the rest of the week,for the rest of the year,for the rest of the next year. i seriously don't." that's why\: ). except,i don't feel - at all - guilty.
