instructions: write 10 statements intended to different people. never tell which one is who.
1. remember someone asked how long already? i replied three years and actually was some sort of embarrassed because three yers really isn't
that long but hell,it sure feels like
i've got you under my skin for eVER(: i can only imagine how miserable i will be if and when you
move. i also have these massive grand-plans to stop you from going. *chuckles
we've changed so much since three years ago..we're no longer (or at least not r
eeeeally) those people anymore. i've certainly grown up with you as,you with me,and we really know how to appreciate what we have in our lives now! our circumstances; not just our own
thang but also,everything happening around us. and y'know,
that feels good,haha,knowing that we're often making good decisions not only for ourselves but also keeping everyone around us,in mind. how cool is that?! *sniggers
yahwell,i love you! for you. for everything you are,and everything that's you. because we're together so much,you influence the way i am! and that's not too bad,is it? no,it isn't bad at all! haha. so yea,i know that this,
love(x is unchanging. and beyond beyond beyond what we think we have. besides,we have forever. no?
2. you both lied. to me. i would like to say,though you'll never know,because i hope you (
or you) do not ever find your way here,that i knew about it all along. and almost everything,as well. how? because your
code-talk was not successful in hiding whatever was to be hidden. which,now,isn't anymore. i do not think i deserve it and now i sound annoyingly bratty. and i hate it. i hate sounding bratty. and i hate myself. alot,sometimes. because of what happened. what i do think is that i'm not
tHAT dumb. i was not oblivious or naïve and certainly knew everything that was going on around me. everything that was hidden. and when revealed,hit like a train. you made it that way. though i know you really never meant for it to be like that. it is all really disgusting.
i know what it was like; when things were better. there was a time when it was all good! i want that. i want that to come back. y'know,people move on and i seem to have trouble with that. but you don't see,because why should i show you pain right? it makes me want to dig my heart out and never feel again. so,this,somehow,some sort of cannot be corrected. or can it?
3. so many things have happened in a year. i never thought we'd end up this way. i never thought
i'd end up this way..never
you would either. then again,it isn't really
the end huh?(x some things you say probably get me hopping mad because they're always said and yah,
always said. it annoys me; you being so negative about me,your life,your grades,love life,et cetera. sometimes i think you assume or infer(as you like to put it) too much. and that gets me mad too. because i know you
are(!) assuming too much. now it sounds like a lot of things get me mad. and i guess a lot of things do. not just things about you,but things,in general. on the other hand,there're times you make me so sunny and tickled pink around you. sometimes,you say things which totally makes me want to cry,not because i'm hurt by what you say. because i know you don't mean them that way. i sound like i'm often pissed off by you but i swear that's not too true. and in many ways,i too,am really thankful for you(:
[edit] you're not invisible. you aren't at all.
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4. your presence is my comfort(: i can look like
this,all the time. with you,i can totally be an airhead and you won't think i'm some bimbo. with you,i don't have to pretend to be something i'm not! mmm not that i had a habit of doing that at all,but. yea. if i didn't have you,everything in school would be this great big mess. greater than it is now. everything goes away temporarily when we laugh and talk nonsense. i like nonsense. i like being nonsensical with you. but,temporarily cause we can never really runaway,right? i like the way you go
you're having cramps right. cause you're not talking or
i'm so slow today cause you're not talking. just thinking about the way you say it makes me happy. cause you notice all my little
things. and how in normal school day,we only see each other for a few hours and "complain" on weekends that we see each other too much? if there were eight days in a silly week? i'd gladly see you all eight days too(:
5. i like to laugh. and smile. make people happy and in turn,be happy. you make me smile at the things you say,laugh at you
and me. i know you're complicated. i wonder if you're happy. we haven't been talking much,but that does not affect me. so what exactly are you to me? one night,you were feeling emo. i have this feeling you feel that a lot. well,that made me want to help you out..make you feel better\:
6. i shouldn't be failing that subject? yea,i know.
but you know what?
speak for yourself.
7. i think we both have this way of keeping things to ourselves. (at the very least,i do) i know that you have absolutely no idea how much you mean to me. and that probably goes the other way,too? that's fine. right? but sometimes,people need to hear that sort of thing from each other. i guess,it's the same with care. things have changed a lot between you and me. we've drifted apart and probably have very different point of views on many things now. i think i miss you. that and talking to you too. sometimes i wonder what happened that made us
not-close-anymore and i guess things just don't last forever. well,i don't really want to wonder because it causes these outbursts of aches which only cause me to
wonder even more if you feel those too. well,we had good times and i guess what we had
was something candy coated(: because i,too,will remember the funny times we had. how silly-ly lame we both can be. hours of nothing but rubbish and happiness. being "rubbishy" and "spastic". sometimes i think i know you and the way you are,but now i think i'm wrong. though i don't really have a reason to substantiate being wrong. i care for you a lot. and it's nice to hear how your life is going sometimes. then again,i wish i didn't care. and i need to let this go.
8. i won't ever really admit this. either that,or i don't ever really realize but i guess i know you are,like what everyone tells me,"
veh good" to me. you're this super friend who's (actually) gentle and cares a monster lot,rarely talks and always laughs. in school,everyone worries about you. at home,i worry about you because you tell me. and..i like that(: you,telling me stuff. because you don't,to many people. it makes me feel trusted. when i'm not hung up over
this and that about you,you're super company! i actually think that we've reached this level of understanding. though that may be one-sided cause i feel i know better than you know me. i just hope all's well at home. your sister is funny. and bubbly and noisy. and complains a lot. haha,
the extreme opposite of you trying to be all calm,cool and composed,while
durrrrrr-ish at the same time q:
9. hullo! i miss you! i remember the last message you sent me telling me you missed me too! but that..was a long time ago. let's go out! because even though i don't see you much in three hundred and 65 days,in fact,i don't even think the number of times i see you (in all) adds up to a week! but yea,even though i don't even get to see you alotalot,when i do see you,it's like we never left each other at all(: i wna play netball with you againnnn. so get your butt back from thailand and call me!(: lovelove!
10. that thing which's above the lock of the main door? in old flats,they used to be latches. but now,they've changed it. but i guess you could still call it a latch? i think the reason why we don't put the latch into place when
everyone's home's cause
everyone's not home and
everyone won't really be home. at least,it doesn't seem like that's going to happen anytime soon. well,the
everyone that we have right now includes you,obviously. (i know you won't be reading this) but come home soon..i know you're studying for your exams and all. the latch isn't put into place every night just in case you decide to come back. even for a little while. or just to drop off dirty laundry. just enough time for us to see you. yah?(:
