yah great thanks. actually.
i dont think thats the kindof thing to say to your sister.
actually.
i dont think thats the kindof thing to say to anyone atall.
i mean,sure i think im dumb but not to the extentof
me not being cut out for schl.
"i always felt you were never interested in schling."
and i was like,
"huh?"
never interested..uh.
right.
"you dont seem to like learning,"
"whereas i like learning.."
"especially the subjs i can do well in."
noones talking abt quitting schl.
so whyre you talking abt me getting outof it?
im not that dumb.
there're things i can do well enuff.
you werent an excellent student either..
whyd you have to make me feel even more stupid than i already am?
and the soundof your voice,
your tone.
it was so matter-of-fact.
like,
"oh you cant do schl.its not your thing."
then fucking hell,
whatd you want me to do with my life?
if i dont goto schl
how in the freaking hell am i gonna be what i wna be?
just cuz youre doing well now,
you come and tell me abt schl.
im not the one running outof schl in the middleof the day
getting mcs from the clinic downstairs varifying my wellbeing.
or the lackof it.
im cramming and
im trying hard.
but as always it never seems to be enuff.
how come youre doing well.
how come i never do?
i cant wait for jiejie to get home.
atleast she doesnt tell me im dumb in my face.
the mouse is acting up.
eet ees weird.
theres this article in the papers.
abt this buster who had an affair in vietnam.
and he "invited" her back to sg to live in his home.
whats really dumb was they did it in his house and
she got pregnant.
BAH.
his surname is loh.
and hes one hellof a dumbass.
im actually feeling very pissed at the retard.\:
"its not love,its spite.why let her win?" urgh.w t v r . like,whats the point.
and you wna adopt his and the other womans kid.
maybe im not being understanding or smth but
i really cant stand idiots who go arnd banging other woman
when they already have wives.
dope.
oh right.FRANCIS LOH.
|: okay but
"after seventeen years in a marriage,
calling it quits isnt an easy decision"
thats true.
but some ppl cant help it.
they go beyond seventeen years and
they still have to.
this francis loh is an idiot.
and his stupid mistress is one too.
i sound like a bitch but.*shrug-
what is an article like that doing in the papers anw.
i had lunch with daddy yesterday
felt familiar..i mean,felt like we lunched everyday
but yea,reality is we dont.
half the time hes out.
with other peeble.
yahwell.itfeels nice to be picked up from schl..
your daddy drives you to wherever ya'll have decided to lunch
you leave your burdenof a bag in the car
and walk like youre carefree and all.
or maybe it isnt all those.
maybe its just nice to be with someone you love.
eh.it is!uplifting.(:
zig or zag. cinn always has these cute little games.
we breathe and sigh at the same time
and make a wish.
hold hands and say zig/zag.
the first time we both said zig.
and that was at charlies house.
where we were playing with sparklers throwing it into charlies garden.
(garden?beeg patch of carpet grass?)uh.yea.
surprised sarah on tuesday.was
her beegday!
saw the gang!
well..just cinn nad charlie and rahrAHbaby.
we were studying!
[insert yahoo smiley.]
i dont think therell come a time when i'll say that
it is or was a chore seeing them.
which proves that being with the ones you love
and hold dear muchly is absolutely the bestest feeling in the world.
you know that you need someone
or them or him or her when thinking abt them
starts to hurt.
i miss cinn,i do.
very much.how she has a tinge of an accent now
proves that its been too long a time since ive last seen her.
and not knowing how to laugh the way i did when nad tells a joke anymore..
that kindof sucks too.
i can actually use my fingers to count the number of times i cldnt help laughing.
but im not saying im a sad person.
its probably just the exams.
being with the gang is probably like being in heaven.
haha.ohwell.
im glad rahaa was happy.
i mean,its impt to be happy on your beegday.
cuz you must feel special and loved,no?
yea.
haha.im so.crappyy.
okayy.study hard,everyone.
`think of you
and me and you and me and
y ou
till it hurts.
