"i have an irrational fear
of bright red dresses,
like the one my cousin wore
to my grandmother's memorial service
because red was grandma's favorite color
and julie wanted to please her.
but all it really did
was make all of her wrinkled friends
make just-swallowed-lemon faces
at the audacity
and disrespect.
they thought my cousin was showing
when all julie was doing
was trying her hardest
to make us smile
through our tears."
(: food for thought.
hehs.
i actually havent been fighting the urge
to come online.
infact,i really cldnt care less.
have been mugging and cramming.
of course,with the constant
familiarity of a sense of panic
and distress that no matter how hard i try
its never going to be enuff.
(which probably means i havent tried enuff?)
ahhell.nyehh.
dont think dont care just piah.haha.
twas a good night!
the family reunites!(:
haha.when its just suuu's the pooot and i
we're happy.
with leezongwennn,
we're happier!
haha.
absolute rubbish ppl.
but yea,the ppl who make me happy.heh.
i'd offer you my hand
it wld hurt to much to watch you die.
--
010504 i have a feeling i saw jiawen today
at wheelock place.
but i cant see without my glasses
and i dont like wearing them.
then i think i saw someone else too.
just that im not sure.
and i hope not.
if not he'll think im daoing him agn.
PAH.
