you ran away again -
im not expecting you to call back anyway.
aii.saturday night.
im so very tired but i
must must
blog.haha
for whatever reason.
i think it must be just me
cuz i feel like ive been smiling too much.
theres this
well
ache.
its not like i stopped to think abt whether i was being fake so
i probably wasnt.
*shrugs
okay so she called back.haha
baked cookies with jiejie today.
was such a grumpy morning -
she screamed at me to get up
then we went to get stuff for baking.
then she started making more noise
while we walked home from holland v cuz
i,
the smarty,
told her to drink apple juice aloe vera for breakfast.
i thought it was funny anyway..but i meant it.
haha.=p
said smth like
"just cuz you have an unhealthy diet and dont eat well
doesnt mean that others have to too" aii. |=
then we got home and
she continued lecturing me abt my unhealthy diet
saying stuff like "starting monday, youre gonna get up on time and have bfast"
as if. bleh.
not that im pissed or anything.
cuz im not feeling anything.hee
so yah.
itll just continue its ringing in my head..
you dont have breakfast!and you dont have lunch..!and you dont care abt dinner either.."
all i can do is shrug.
YOURE USED TO NOT EATING RIGHT!
yea, i guess i am and i dont know why.
i can go without eating
not like itll affect me in any beeg way.
i can br hungry..
"procrastinate" eating for awhile..
then become un-hungry.
its weird, i know.
but its this way.
aiya. wtvr the case,
i swear im not anorexic.
i dont look anorexic.
and even though ppl say i am
they dont mean it.
they only say it cuz i say silly things like
im fat.haha
i dont think im fat.
im okay i guess.
but there're bound to be those little littlest times
when ppl look into the mirror and think "im fat."
right? right. yah.
--
it makes me feel better to have found the reason.
so now,
ive smth to say.
perhaps an excuse to give..
but the point is: its smth right.
