[if i placed my heart on a weighing scale, itd probably break it.]*
i was just beginning to start getting used to seeing
you on everyday and then youd msg me to
say hey little ness and
would you believe it.
that made me happy.
i cant be bothered now so
dont come back cuz i dont care.
got to ahmas house to be greeted by
"mummy hui jia le."
"wo zhi dao.."
"ta hen sheng qi."
cuz today i got the book back today
and i was supposed to show it to her
but i was a tad bit late to come to ahmas house
so she went home for cell.
oh i failed art overall. and guess what.
i dont care.
heh. so i was just sitting there keeping quiet
and she asked me how it was.
what can i say right.
its not extravagant neither is it bad.
so i said okay. suggest a better word.
smth more conforting..acceptable?
i doubt. so i gave that irritated tone while saying it
cuz i know that would make her stop asking. she
doesnt particularly like it when i get pissed at her.
unlike mummy who doesnt care.
when shes angry, all thats in her mind is herself.
that is a fact.
noones perfect right. |:
i dont mean to make her sound bad. though
it does sound bad.
just the way i feel. *sticks out tongue
i figured :p didnt have as much of an effect.
that marked the end of the the book conversation
and i was sitting there staring blankly
into the goggle box.
entered the zone as jiejie would describe it.
until this weird advert on the u channel appeared.
advertising this talk show-ish thingawing.
smth abt shao(4)nian(2)zi(4)sha-ing(1).
they made it seem as if the cheena ppl zisha-ed.
showed the before-they-zi-shaed-letters.
analysing the reasons for their zi sha's.
seriously its quite interesting lorr. haha. =x
i was intending to make that sound sad
and then i remembered how dying zi sha-ing didnt sound like too much of a big thing so.
they said smth abt pple who commit suicide thinking that
after "life is better or at least will be less stressful when they die."
but to what i believe, it isnt. *shrug
yahwell it was just a simple advert.
dont wanna make much of a big deal of it.
she once said
'im beginning to hate myself alotalot though i dont know why
so one day when i decide ive had enuff shite and that i cant take it anymore
i swear i'll cut myself not to die but to feel the pain.'
--
saw b today.
with another friend. someone
from tuition class maybe? or maybe
a friend from schl.
havent spoken to her in a long long time.
just not anything impt or worth remembering.. in fact, i was just talking abt her to ning.
but abt nothing impt too. just
normal conversations-sake-talk.
stuff that dont necessarily need to be remembered
just not forgotten for memories-sake.
like the time when we walked in the pouring rain to ikea for lunch
with fat raindrops rolling down both our noses.
then we both were freezing when we stepped in.
im like blogging abt that for the second time already. heh
but we were laughing and happy. ohwell
i remember stuff like that and
sometimes i think she doesnt or maybe she does and
doesnt make a big deal of it.
maybe but i'll never be sure.
--
i havent been receiving fwds for a while now.
maybe cuz ppl know how much i hate those ugly looking bears and things made out of plain looking letters numbers and */#es.
though its quite interesting if you know how to type
those ugly looking things to form other ugly looking things. haha
ning sent this..a sweet pictureless fwd.
peter pan once said:
think of a sweet thought
then you can fly
guess what?
you make
_me fly. (:
(: combine mtain churches thing was quite alright.
i wouldnt say fun but like better than alright-ish.
the second singspiration was good.
i like the songs!! but i cant remember any of them all of a sudden.
yahwell, saw christine with like this bunch of
seriously bimbotic girls.
like even mich thought so..haha.
*shrug ohwell.
i was talking to you for awhile before the wedding singer started
like for a really short while
which seemed pretty long at the same time.
yknow what amazes me most is when youre like that.
tame..haha.
but yeaa, thats when i start missing you again
even though youre like concentrating on me.
